Getting There: Mr. M J D "Am I Wrong"?

                                               Video Emotions: "Am I Wrong" for my feelings?

It is great to have someone stepping up to the plate and better when their mother appreciates your presence in their child's life. I am content and still I worry. Things that seem too good to be true have me wary. After ten years of major life changes, one like me can keep skepticism the demon of choice. Thus why I will admit I block, avoid and change whole demeanor on a mate.

The ‪#‎IronCurtain as one former co-worker at a Doctor's office I worked at with Dr. Sabates once said, "Hunny take them curtains down." I asked, "What curtains?" She said, "The ones you have up not letting anyone in." I was very shocked she noticed my reservations but wished she understood not so easy when many close have in your eyes failed you in the most detrimental ways. Being 22 years old and first job after graduating from Keiser Career College has one see the world daunting in my then circumstances. I was paid well for my age and living on my own as usual since age 18 on my own and from 16 turning 17 years old leaving home.

Things are a bit scary when you just feel so alone and uncertain. Fast forward ten years and always a cycle of uncertainty that has followed me all my existence with never having a set home makes one already prone to be detached, more so. So that comment from the old woman who told me, "Take my curtains down," was needed and always referenced as I do start to over and over it seemed till this new relationship. I am a ball buster, stubborn and endearing in my faith in any mate I am with. So I will encourage growth and will turn away from foolishness as I observe.

I must see the intent and actions to feel secure, mmm...for the moment. I just am happy that the signs panned out true and one who has never been made to feel secure is a bit hesitant in accepting ones shows of it towards life partner goals. I want it all and also will hold off allowing certain vibes come my way as in the ones from a person showing it all as you always wanted. Though rough around the edges as I, I am feeling myself a bit more in this "Union" that is prayed for by a mother (his mother) any child would wish for. The instant introduction after we started to date, the constant counsel with her I would go into over any dilemma I invited hiatus till things were held up, and the feeling of faithful support creeping in now.

I am experiencing what many tell you should be and sitting back letting it happen. No matter ones speculations, those close namely Mrs. Duperval full knowledge of all things keeps me grounded in my decisions with actions taken to make sure my choice is final. I just always wanted stability and very grateful for it in the relationship department finally. Now to keep it moving to the next chapter I am anxious to take. Just have to pinch myself with all happening.