Yesterday was not a good day. After having some symptoms I
am use to at times news is never nice, I had to go in for an emergency visit to
hospital after falling in the shower. The day before I had to catch myself from
falling after a dizzy spell while walking to the front door from my car. I know
I have Vertigo that was diagnosed when I worked at IHOP a few years back, but
all these symptoms at once for a prolonged period is alarming. Then to think I
would get certain news as to why feeling tired more and always fatigued quickly
I attributed to stress and deaths in just one month, is more hormonal. Yet with
all that also being a factor, the appointments I had to make yesterday after my
ultrasound show more is of concern. Though I knew things could lead to this
outcome, I really did not think so soon after exploratory surgery of another
organ showed great images.
It is scary and I work hard not to let things get to me, but
I am scared for real. So as I learn that a mass in my ovary has formed while I
have been feeling tight pain all of a sudden there bothers me because it
reminds me. Reminds me every time before the cancer word was used or alluded to
I was always at a stage before a spread. So I feel that there is a reason all
my life I was in tune with my body and why I always was brought to the doctors
from a young age for ailments within time to avoid worst outcomes. Thus the
reason at fourteen to see a Gynecologist for hormonal imbalance issues and
poly-cystic ovarian syndrome that was diagnoses after five years of observation
was a must too. I know the ropes and always handle the emotional aspect myself
since many even if they were present at a visit never care or mention matter
again. At twenty three years of age,
abnormal cells were discovered. I went a different route in stress moderation
and next visit all cells were gone.
Fast forward five years and another biopsy
shows cells changing at a stage before spreading. Margins reached and their
look was concerning. It took three months for an OB to see me with those
results because the day they came in I was told I was also pregnant. Instead of
abort as I was suggested to and deal with diagnosis and treatment, I kept my
son. Just not one to have one done just to get rid.
Very scary and stressing to be pregnant and month one no
doctor. At first visit and consult where I hand biopsy results from
FAU's specialist, you’re told they cannot provide you prenatal care. Then month
two another doctor says no because they can do the OB part but do not
specialize in risky pregnancies.
For one in my then circumstances, an
obstetrician who has a specialist they work with and can interpret the
bi-weekly results of was a must. A special ultrasound that is 4D on steroids to see every
angle of the fetus and your cancerous tissue was a must. So finally I found
Royal Palm Medical in Coral Springs who had a specialist (Neonatal Surgeon) at
Plantation Hospital I saw every two weeks my entire pregnancy. The women who
delivered me were the best and all my follow ups, out-patient procedures and
referral to Dr. Ndubisi the best in cancer extraction was reassuring I was in
good hands. So right now I am going through a similar situation and look
forward to tackling the same each time before, with a clear mind and focus on
me. Reducing my output and listening to my body more. Learning to deal with
judgments for one can be many things but cannot say they understand what you
are going through. I am going through much of this now and that too can be
draining. So I stay in my lane. Till next time as I go at it again to avoid
worst.
