Aquarius Dawn Nancy Reflections: Black Men Protecting Black Women

@ciaindahouse Black Women Should Feel Protected 

Love her posts @ciaindhouse ! 

Sadly too many who know one is vulnerable prey on them. Even after they know past dealing with let downs of this kind mentioned in this post, many black men do not do as they talk of. This is why I teach my son to always respect women and defend them. 

Guess I did too good a job because he wants to be a cop, fireighter, enter the Navy Seals, Air Force or any branch of Armed Forces at which I now try to deter him. He is too superhero for me in a world that does not value him much as a "Black Male", well "Man-child", as I taught him since young using that word with him to teach he is a man who now is a child.  Anywho, he is so super "I want to protect my little sister" mode because of implanting this mindset before I got pregnant with daughter. That hero stuff, not feeling it in Amerikkka anymore. He will be among racists who may get him killed, do it themselves and then leave me mourning if still alive. I must pray, put protection on my kids and do much spiritually already. That dream of his to save people is great but really in this world is not valued by many because he is highly Melanated. 

The world needs fixing and cleansing of all the sick demons wanting to kill another human being just cause they can. Protect self, but not straight murder and get away with it! I really do not want my son to be retaliated against doing his passion for being black but to defend black women and his sister all day. Use to tell my son, "Do not do to another woman when a cop what they did to your mommy. Be there for women being abused by the men they live with." Now, I do not want him on any police force with racist cops plotting or racist police chiefs not protecting their own who have integrity. 

People need to be real, the system is broken. Many of our own enjoy political positions but do not flex much of shit in getting things changed. Pennsylvania has a guy doing things for felons, great! New York has a woman learned of saying some real shit. Florida, meh, know of some moves but still just lip service, cute outfits and cowgirl hats. Could care less how popular many are among the community! 

I live some shit that shows me ain't shit really being done. Some get help while many must take matters into own hands and that is if an attorney wants to take case,  time to sit in a law library, and afford to file motions. I use to believe in a just system but after all my ex is getting away with. My experience has shown me what I now must teach my children, that is do not trust the system or any man. Listen to their words and pay most attention to their actions. I love the post above but sometimes it can call for real men to be harmed because many men out here are cowards!

Man, January 1st 2018, Aquarius Dawn Nancy Is More Alive!

By Aquarius Dawn Nancy

Listening to the blues, not because I am blue, just because. The women like Nina Simone, Billie Holiday, Ella Fitzgerald and so many more blues with jazz singers just move me. I like to listen to music and helps get the work done. Much introspection done after hell broke loose. 

I no longer trust law enforcement. I no longer believe in the Justice System. I have decided to date a man who shows me actions I only use to hear of and it makes me "Feel Good" at a time my heart longs for my wrongfully taken daughter, Goddess-Isis. She lives among a bunch of unscrupulous liars I no longer consider descent people. I just find solace in that the spirit of my ancestors saw me through what many whom claim a false faith perpetuated with the help of crooked personnel whom used unethical practices to pry into my records, put misinformation in reports, and did all this in the name of "Their Jesus". 

With that said, I must keep to convictions and deal with those who keep it real. Just paused writing because I got a great gift from Blu Headz Entertainment. 😊 Love when a medium gives me permission to use their content! #ThankYou it just warms my heart! 

Bye for now, off to post and blog about more Giants 😎😉🤗🤓☺

Goddess-Isis C. Duperval, She Is Amazing

Goddess-Isis C. Duperval

Today she is a one month and a day old newborn growing stronger and smarter. On a schedule which is good, just the duties of motherhood with juggling daily life.

Yet,

She is so amazing!!!

She is also the reason for no sleep, eeks!!!

Goddess-Isis, mommy's nicest.

She is smart, beautiful, intelligent,  and lovable! 

Postpartum Depression, Sorting It Out

Very important to notice changes and act. Happy I found a release but last week I felt hopeless and so fatigued to even sort all the jumbled thoughts. Yet, when you have a partner working on being more helpful to let you sleep, it makes a big difference. Sleep deprivation is no joke and just resting if afforded the chance clears your mental. I was at a point to let every obligation go because the every hour and half to two hour alerts from a newborn they need the boob or bottle or to be changed was brutal. Now, focus is on having constant support in getting feelings out and figuring out a routine that works. Did not feel needs were being heard and acted on. Hard to deal with too when not use to asking for help with everything from breakfast to getting in and out of bed. So for now slowly getting into the groove of having a newborn.

Baby News: My Daughter, Goddess-Isis Is Here

The past year has been a doozy!
From unexpected sudden deaths and learning pregnant to finding out dad is battling Prostate Cancer, much has been autopilot mode.

I have not been able to breathe and now feeling the baby blues when not mentally occupied. I am the type that can put emotions aside easily and get work done. Just having a beautiful little girl and feeling overwhelmed is much now a days.

When I try to divulge feelings, I am told to not stress and reminded to take it easy but I am not able to. I need to get back into my element and meditate more with retreat more in me time when not occupied.

Just seeing this face makes me happy inside :)

Daddy Duperval with Goddess-Isis Duperval

I am just as with much past few years, taking all that comes my way lightly.

Avoiding stressors as much as I can.

Start working out at fitness park near me and get back into crystal healing.

Just happy closer to VonRoss and he bonds so well with Isis. I had Rossline who comforts me in prayer with thoughts, I enjoy my VonRoss and Isis in life relishing in their pleasures.

Now back to work and regrouping back into Haitian American Youth Online Media Productions ;) ...

Father's Day Chronicles: My Son's Dad

My Son and His Dad at The Museum of Discovery & Science (Fort Lauderdale)

One may feel I am feeling my son's father for sharing a post about him and not the case. We are not compatible but we are both mature enough to take care of what we both created in an amicable way. I am one who loves to encourage greatness. Men get the raw deal from disgruntle "Baby Mama's". I for one will not label myself one and make sure to always thank his father for all he does. Men, especially black men need to be acknowledged for being there and taking care of their kids.

Now for us as in parents, we are always striving to be the best we can. We never fight or argue in front of him after the first and last time he ever saw such thing. That was the day I left for my sanity. It was getting ugly. The one thing I prayed for, knock on wood, I got is our being able to parent our son and not be nasty to one another. We have been through it in the ten years off and on relationship till we finally four years ago ended it. So with Father's Day looming near, I just as always want to put it out there in the universe, I am thankful for my son's father.

Soon my boyfriend will be a first-time daddy and I know he will be a great father as well. We are both excited for the arrival of "Might Isis"!