What The Fucks With The Lies?

I just cannot be phony, not even with family. You cannot come and mediate or whatever, then keep the "Jesus" shit to yourself. One coming to me on my statement, can miss me with it. For real, ugh. The "Big Brother" God in the sky watching knows I put up with too much religious bullshit and been too kind and kinder to just X. But these individuals have made me want to sing, sing of all the bullshit this family harbors, ashamed of and gossip to all about yet never once invite one talked of to the table except to show how nice it looks. I was never jealous, just not going to let a "Bougie" thinking woman try me left and right. I would say a word but respect the children she raised though they have continually hurt feelings. I still love em but am very disappointed to see em carry on her behavior. The one that started all this too, "My Kids Are Better" issue at that. A parent is not to lay the seeds of hate, and yet all my life I watch Christian ones whether then not following right as told with supposed pagan rituals just fuck shit up. No accountability but running mouth, sinning, and then find time to discuss me but not talk to me. I am 33, and I am dealing with cancer not one of these Christians FB me on, ever call to ask how I am, but posting God this and that. If I am so unworthy of common respect, why are you worthy to call yourself a "Christian" as you guys state yourselves you are? I need to protect my heart, my mental and my spirit to not do what they all say to. It is not nice and I am over the unfair treatment, the talking to friends about siblings who needed a father to man up, not his children from a woman who is vindictive over taking a man from another woman to find it was all lies. I feel bad for her but who feels or says they do for the neglect, molestation, abuse, and so much still going on? Where is "Christ" in that? Why was it I was shut up but all get to sing like a canary about me behind my back? I just want this answered, "As I suffered, where was my dad and your mother in all this? Why did they not protect me and you know? Why were we not worth it to save? Why is it easy for you guys to judge what you never tried to understand fairly?"

Note: This family needs to clean up its shit without me. I have to put me first and this is part of me continuing to. You guys may feel as if you were there due to answering a call or two, saying hi here and there. Just keep it to gossip at the table and miss me with it. If you can ponder so much about me, then you should have been able to reach out or just keep my name out your mouths since you were not there to be judging hearsay. That is what you guys do, talk shit and then ask one to “Forgive and Forget”, no heal and reflect. Let the other heal and get their apologies, but I am no longer entertaining some. If not that, then WWJD bracelets need to be burned. It takes much to say and do but I must exit. Best that way since some are getting older screaming, “They cannot take what they created by taking up for a few while shunning the rest.” We were not the “Rest” remember that. We were here before the family was broken up in 1985. Get the stories straight then understand why some cannot be bothered with false judgement's that have many told bull that is not true. The one causing the division knows they were the homewrecker. Marriage does not absolve that fact a relationship was broken and the one who did it still meddles. What if I wanted to be vindictive for that? Would I not have every right based on how you guys use misguided information to judge and treat me as such? I no longer am held by the feelings of being alone if I decided to take the stance I am. I just want it known that I too have a heart and feelings. That is all.

Why I Support HAY Online

While Black American is told about their no clothes wearing selves other races are embracing theirs well and raking in the dough but many allow prude attitudes placed within community to have many blind while others dance circles. We have tasteful as well as raunchy. Just support it all as all other races who seem to be dominant by society’s perception. Wealth building, think of it in different ways. Like the ones you are made to shun while other strippers or pole dancers make money and compete but a black girl stripping cannot be encouraged to bring it to the same competition that winning can help repair her self-esteem and change her self-talk around her daughter who may see it easy to make choices when she too waiting for the generational gap in breaking chains fully take affect she finds herself in. The one that had her mother see dancing instead of going into a homeless shelter or be a prostitute though sex sells there too. It is in the champagne room. Life has one like I introduced to much and almost making decisions that many have followed through with. I just do not judge because I too could have been out here loose and almost was. I had many saving graces and wish many would stop being fooled, the more you support certain angles many may shun the more wealth we build. They buy into it when they take it and make it their own, why not keep your fire and maintain it? Support because it is our only way if one is not paying attention to patterns. You as a black person do it, it is ostracized most by your own kind. Yet too many will be supporting their own in other races doing the same damn thing and even making associations,. When this is tried in the Black community, the "Crab Mentality" comes out and it is a wrap that also is an MO those using it against you have years of understanding and now much data to pinpoint. As a community we do not share as much, like as much or support as much online as other counterparts. So my thing from now on is to ignore much in movements till I see real drastic measures more than instigating, solutions I see working. Just focused on those like my son who need all the help they can get. Why not I as a mother with a lifelong dream to help the youth do so now? He is the biggest reason I came back at it after so much before of the same "Foolishness". I just support HAY Online prospects that are vetted and helped along the way. Serious entrepreneurs who deserve it through online prowess observed in how they brand themselves online. Respect those "Beasts"! #SelfMotivation #MothersSacrifice #NoTime #SupportHAYOnline