Insomnia Is A Blessing

Courtesy of Royale L'radin

It is 4:36 am on this Friday the 27th in Tamarac. Florida where I now reside. Something has me feeling jittery as usual. It can be a unfinished project of many or my missing my boyfriend. Either way I am up as usual hitting the ground running and monitoring.

When I was younger I had insomnia issues and found myself sleeping most right when I came from school. Now, I stay up most all day and take nap spurts if the current project being tackled allows or client calls allow. One thing I know for me, is I am more productive in these hours and the years of insomnia with how I went about it prepared me for the rigors of setting all I seek to.

A woman with a master plan that may seem far fetched, yet the results have proven worth the hard work. Shoot my sons father is a believer, just other areas if you ask him are shaky and rightfully so. I am how I was created and environment conditioned me. I just choose not to be defined by my past circumstances anymore and do not allow anyone today to step over the ME I am creating. Some love to tote their positive bull I call it. The bull of one is to just forget. Many say great things without instructions. How is it one can say, "Do not let it get to you" and not share how not to?

Art by with from AlexGrey.com - Insomnia

This is what grappled me at a young age when I said I would not be like my mother and flip for one reason or another. Now my opinionated mouth, that is another story and blog all together. I have been on a self help journey since first grade when the tutor my dad hired was boosting my self-esteem and my teacher then was too. I took it strange they cared about what I was thinking more than my parents. Then Mrs. Cheryl asked me questions about home and would always direct me to learn how to quiet my mind and calm down since I was very hyper. My behavior then screamed out attention and I was blessed to have angels since birth who guided me to all I know now. So the insomnia is directly related to upbringing and now it is a blessing that enables me to do so much along with having a great memory that I work a lot to keep sharp. No games. You have to exercise your brain and I have been since the moment I popped out between my mothers legs, been on the "Go Go Go" with stimulating my mind. First by the immediate nature around me and then when finally out of "Lock Up", the world at large when I was 17 years old. So late start as in getting the streets smarts, but I got it. One important thing though, I have learned to stop taking another's judgments as a reflection of the ME I am supposed to be or not. Embracing me even if up at this hour putting it in.

Aquarius Dawn Nancy, Yes I Am That Chic

Circa 1983 - 1984

Hi, I am Aquarius Dawn Nancy a Haitian American Single Mother, Entrepreneur, Online Queen/Junkie, Social Media Consultant for La Beaute Magazine, Online Presence Consultant, IT Company Owner, proud founder of Haitian American Youth Online Media, Inc and now a blogger for Day to Day Finances with this great release for me personally. :)

My first post and as much as I always have much to say on a topic when asked or provoked to respond without provocation, I cannot right now think of anything. Just kidding, especially those who know me, I have just begun.

Well my posts will be short and sweet in my terms, lol.

Where do I begin? Well you can say I came in this world as a “Little Haiti” baby so to speak. Born in Miami and raised in Broward County, I really am not well versed in the “Streets” of Dade. Now, Broward is my heart line. Relaxing place, that is what it is for me. Yes, I am not one who grew up in the streets, but I embraced them young enough to learn so much from so many that have humbled me, toughened me up and made who I am today. Grateful to many I know who have been an inspiration to me in a positive or negative way.

Much has transpired in my 33 years on this earth and at times I will just let my thoughts out or not. It is an “As the Wind Blows” kind of thing for me. So today this 26th day of February, I choose to just share my current joys. Like my son who is six this past month and ringing in another year to bless the earth with my unique presence. Yes, you will find much conceit these days in this blog. One must be that inner cheerleader when all can be internal as in what you are living through. Many like to say to stay at peace, well some of us must muster up the calm after the storm others we allow in our lives bring. Only difference for me is, I will gladly ignore a call from an annoying entity and why I understand if one finds me as such, no hard feelings if I too am done the same.

There is a movement brewing that all are joining no matter race or creed. It is the, “Positive Vibes Movement”, I like to call it. We want to find inner peace in our way and not how others generalize it or say it to be. Finding peace can mean rocking out to Rock – N – Roll or just going outside to sit in the sun to meditate a bit. We all de-stress differently. I like to write and always have had journals. Now keeping them is another story. I recently lost all my belongings through my own actions but in keeping it real I do not have my old ones. So much made me and continues to mold the work in progress I am as we all are. Evolution, people! Sigh, it was all part of the master plan for my life though, “The Purge” and "This Purge"(My Blog).